My Cancer Was Diagnosed So Fast

One minute I thought I was having an apendicitis attack and the next an amazing surgeon (Dr. Helen Frederickson, surgical oncologist) is performing a complete hysterectomy because I have ovarian cancer. Even though I've had cancer before (stage T3b Breast Cancer in 1999) ... it's one dilly of an eye opener. Hello mortality... nice to see you again... what do we do now?

Luckily the answer to that question is simple... I do whatever it takes to save my life! Relationally, physically, emotionally, spiritually & financially. I will, as always, begin with the two most important steps... the emotional and the spiritual. That is where miracles are created... where faith resides. They are the most important of all the steps because they are really the only ones that I have any direct control over. Relationships will ebb & flow... my physical body will go through many phases and changes... and the financial will take a miracle all it's own... but I have complete dominion over my emotional and spiritual attitude and my habits & practices.

It's more than just having a "positive" attitude or "praying". It's a process of creating the feelings associated with the complete disappearance of any signs of dis-ease in my mind or my body. The doctor actually gave me the perfect words to create a visual... she said that she was unable to remove the cancerous tissue in an area called the "cul de sac" of my pelvis. Well... now I'm having fun with that... you can imagine this with me (and for me) ...

• On every cul de sac there is a curb... and in those curbs there is debris and dirt. Well, in my family we use a power-cleaner to remove the dirt and grime. So, I open the garage and get out the power washer... fill it with the most pure, bright, powerful, loving, glowing & fragrant wash... and I walk into the cul de sac and begin to spray away anything that doesn't belong. More over, I imagine that once this super-water has touched the grime it vanishes, disolves & disappears, leaving a brilliant white surface ... never to be dirty again! I'm getting into EVERY nook & cranny... around the bushes, between the cracks, into the smallest of blemishes of the concrete and asphalt. There is no place that the water and spray can't reach!  AND SO IT IS (ASII).

Next step is healing from surgery. Chemotherapy starts on December 3rd and I'll need all my strength for the 18 weeks of weekly treatments. I'll be bald by Christmas... so Santa's going to bring me some really nice hats :)  It's all a blessing... that's my reality!

Thanks to everyone who continues to follow my journey. I can't tell you how happy I am to have you with me. It's a feeling of care, love and peace that continually amazes and lifts me. I can't thank you enough for your generosity of spirit and faith!! Please, never hesitate to tell me what you need prayers for ... I'm here to return the favor in any way that I can !

Going to Skype with my Brother now... I'll talk with you all later on! 
Many, many blessings!!!
Colista